Monday, December 27, 2010
8 weeks and not so motivated....
so the next show is 8 weeks out...not motivated, not motivated, not motivated. I have been going to the gym, my diet has been well mediocre and I am in a better place than I was 8 weeks out from the last show, but OMG I can't tell you how I wish that I had someone to train with....it was a HUGE mistake not to join team fitbody this time. At least with that, I knew I had to face Julie every four weeks and I really didn't want to disappoint her...now it is only me that has to hold me accontable and I am not doing a very good job of it. However, I am going to sign up to compete and hope to god that motivation comes in the form of a very small bikini...lord let's hope so....I have been blessed to meet some awesome and when I say awesome I mean truly awesome women in this journey and I would like to spend some stage time with them so I will find inspiration somewhere....and I will get out of my sweatpants even though they are super comfy. :)
Raising Jake...
I was trying to blog more often, trying to inspire more people and then Christmas, Jake's birthday and the endless family gatherings, late nights and gift wrapping have left me with an awful cold and sore throat...but I would be a really bad mom if I didn't blog about my favorite 6 yr old and his b-day.
Jake was born in a snow storm on December 23rd, 2004, he was the very very best Christmas present a mom could ask for and he has been my sidekick since day one. After Jake was born, I returned to work for about 6 months and then decided to quit and be a stay at home mom. Ok...so we don't stay home much. Jake was a super shopper, went with me to StrollerFit class, attended corporate meetings at strollerfit and was and still is a very low key kiddo. The best part about raising Jake is often times I think he is raising me. We have kind of grown up together. We have made and lost some friends and we have gone through some terrible stuff (death of Great Grandpa and our beloved dog, Gunner to name a few).
When I started training for the fitness competition, Jake was the first one to tell EVERYONE, that his mom was going to do a fitness show. I think that his teacher thought I was a stripper, I am sure the kids in his class told their parents who have no clue what to think about me, I told no one and Jake told everyone...he was proud of his mom. He would be my conscious when I was eating and told me more than once "if you eat that you may look big at your show." Raising Jake has been a pleasure and a pain, when his heart breaks so does mine and when he succeeds it is inspiring. I really don't know what I have done for god to bless me with Jake. He is a wonderful little boy who at the age of 6 has some pretty lofty goals in life and is more determined than most teenagers. He has a kind heart and a passion to be the best and it is my pleasure to be his mom. Happy birthday Jake, six is going to be a great year.
Jake was born in a snow storm on December 23rd, 2004, he was the very very best Christmas present a mom could ask for and he has been my sidekick since day one. After Jake was born, I returned to work for about 6 months and then decided to quit and be a stay at home mom. Ok...so we don't stay home much. Jake was a super shopper, went with me to StrollerFit class, attended corporate meetings at strollerfit and was and still is a very low key kiddo. The best part about raising Jake is often times I think he is raising me. We have kind of grown up together. We have made and lost some friends and we have gone through some terrible stuff (death of Great Grandpa and our beloved dog, Gunner to name a few).
When I started training for the fitness competition, Jake was the first one to tell EVERYONE, that his mom was going to do a fitness show. I think that his teacher thought I was a stripper, I am sure the kids in his class told their parents who have no clue what to think about me, I told no one and Jake told everyone...he was proud of his mom. He would be my conscious when I was eating and told me more than once "if you eat that you may look big at your show." Raising Jake has been a pleasure and a pain, when his heart breaks so does mine and when he succeeds it is inspiring. I really don't know what I have done for god to bless me with Jake. He is a wonderful little boy who at the age of 6 has some pretty lofty goals in life and is more determined than most teenagers. He has a kind heart and a passion to be the best and it is my pleasure to be his mom. Happy birthday Jake, six is going to be a great year.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Bitter, not the the new black!
Are you green with envy or bitter because someone has something you don't have...I am sure everyone just said ummm yep. But who wants to admit it? Not very many of us.
I will be honest, I get bitter pretty easily and it is one of my work in progress things. Better cars, bigger houses, fitter bodies, smaller jeans, bigger trust funds (ok let's be honest any trust fund), there are a thousand things everyday that I think man, I just wish I had what she has and then I think to something a trusted friend told me awhile ago. I asked her to kindly remind me to be thankful of my husband and she said in her very wise ways "do your kids ever ask you if their daddy will recognize them in heaven?" Yes, she is a widow and a very wise one indeed. She puts a lot of things into perspective for me, actually a ton of things. But me being bitter, envious, jealous whatever adjective you would like to throw in there is very often brought back to reality because of my dear friend.
In the season of giving and receiving, the true meanings of lots of things are lost. I will be bitter because a friend got a new car, a diamond ring, boobs, whatever for Christmas and I got sweat pants (yes, this did happen one year). But to be very honest, after careful examination I bet someone is envious of me because I got my sweatpants from a kind husband in a warm home on a great Christmas morning. We all try to keep up with the Jones' and often lose sight of what we truly need versus want in life. It is counterproductive, a total energy suck to be bitter about someone having more than you. First, you don't know how they got it or if they are in dept to their eyeballs for it and for those things you can't buy (fitness etc) you don't know how often those folks are in the gym or what they eat or if they are genetically inclined to be fit.
I will be very honest, recently I heard a story of someone I knew in a former life having plastic surgery....I was pissed. But why did I care, did I think she may look better than I did? Maybe she will, but I can hang my hat on the fact that my body is the way it is because I work my rearend off, not because I decide to go under the knife and not put in the work. And in the end, I have to be proud of what I am able to accomplish.
There will always be someone with more than you. Trust me. There is no golden egg to having everything we want. The trick is to be happy with what you have and making the best life possible. Bitterness is a nasty sour drink, there is no need to take any part in it. Let it go, remove yourself from those things that make you bitter and be THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE. It is a hard adult lesson and even at 33, I don't have it mastered but I am getting better. Remember this holiday season to be very thankful for what you have, there are people who would love to be you, you just don't realize that because often times we are trying to be someone else.
Stay away from the crap food and do some cardio.....:)
Happy holidays.
I will be honest, I get bitter pretty easily and it is one of my work in progress things. Better cars, bigger houses, fitter bodies, smaller jeans, bigger trust funds (ok let's be honest any trust fund), there are a thousand things everyday that I think man, I just wish I had what she has and then I think to something a trusted friend told me awhile ago. I asked her to kindly remind me to be thankful of my husband and she said in her very wise ways "do your kids ever ask you if their daddy will recognize them in heaven?" Yes, she is a widow and a very wise one indeed. She puts a lot of things into perspective for me, actually a ton of things. But me being bitter, envious, jealous whatever adjective you would like to throw in there is very often brought back to reality because of my dear friend.
In the season of giving and receiving, the true meanings of lots of things are lost. I will be bitter because a friend got a new car, a diamond ring, boobs, whatever for Christmas and I got sweat pants (yes, this did happen one year). But to be very honest, after careful examination I bet someone is envious of me because I got my sweatpants from a kind husband in a warm home on a great Christmas morning. We all try to keep up with the Jones' and often lose sight of what we truly need versus want in life. It is counterproductive, a total energy suck to be bitter about someone having more than you. First, you don't know how they got it or if they are in dept to their eyeballs for it and for those things you can't buy (fitness etc) you don't know how often those folks are in the gym or what they eat or if they are genetically inclined to be fit.
I will be very honest, recently I heard a story of someone I knew in a former life having plastic surgery....I was pissed. But why did I care, did I think she may look better than I did? Maybe she will, but I can hang my hat on the fact that my body is the way it is because I work my rearend off, not because I decide to go under the knife and not put in the work. And in the end, I have to be proud of what I am able to accomplish.
There will always be someone with more than you. Trust me. There is no golden egg to having everything we want. The trick is to be happy with what you have and making the best life possible. Bitterness is a nasty sour drink, there is no need to take any part in it. Let it go, remove yourself from those things that make you bitter and be THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE. It is a hard adult lesson and even at 33, I don't have it mastered but I am getting better. Remember this holiday season to be very thankful for what you have, there are people who would love to be you, you just don't realize that because often times we are trying to be someone else.
Stay away from the crap food and do some cardio.....:)
Happy holidays.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Can it be done?
Well, December is here and I am hoping that I can stay fit during the holidays. Also, during this holiday season, I am going to be doing some training...a whole lot of training. So, I have been asking myself can this be done and can it be done without half assing the entire thing I hope so...with a little faith, a whole lot of discipline and an injury free winter then yes, I think it can be done. So, her is the plan. A bikini comp in late Feb and late March. Possibly one in April and a sub 2 hr flying pig half marathon. Hmmm...it that there is Christmas, Jake's bday, my bday and a number of parties etc. Can I stay on track. I hope so.
I want to say this....I started the bikini competition journey about 3 months ago and it was the best thing I have ever done for ME. Yes, I did it for ME. How many moms need to do something for themselves....do it now. You need to do it now. You will be a better mom if you have time for you. I also in this journey have met some very nice, totally awesome, so very positive and goal oriented people. This journey was meant to be and it was meant to be for me. Some moms think what I do is selfish. I put the kids in the gym daycare for about 1.5 hours a day. But for me, I am with them well let's see 22.5 hours for the rest of the day so I'm not feeling guilty. I did feel really bad in the beginning, but guess what my kids love the childcare, they enjoy it. I as a mom have never missed a school function or a pick up because of my training, I have skipped a few birthday parties to avoid the party food, but that is it.
In short, hopefully this blog will help anyone get motivated. Hopefully, it will help moms not feel guilty about taking time out for YOU, and hopefully it will entertain some of you.
Thanks for reading and I am sure I will be back soon.
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